These Bleeding Scars Will Never Heal

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 00:09:40 GMT

hey there i just got a couple of shirts they are cool they are bleeding through and martyr ad and the judas cradle they are awsome looking and im looking to be in a band where i play guitar id like to do some crazy hardcore shit so let me know if ur looking

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 05:58:40 GMT

sorry about the long wait i have been just blah so i havent had anything interesting to write about but now i do i got 2 new shirts one is the judas cradle and the other is bleeding through they are cool but anyway my band is recording some shnit for ya'll so get ready mosh biatches and we have a few shows comming up so check the site www.crushedbydesire.com c ya

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 22:01:36 GMT

i got chrome strings for my guitar and chrome strings for my bass today they are very sweet its awsome cause its not cutting my fingers for once ya so im really bored and i have nothing to do so i played lip gloss and black by atreyu 50 times on my guitar and now i think i can play it without looking at the guitar lol well i guess if anyone ever wants to hang out reply then call me later

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 06:22:35 GMT

last night was a really good show thanks to all the people that i knew that saw us like amy and alex and hannah and tracy and india and jackie and all the guys from learn to suffer and erin and erins dad and jeff and daniel thanks alot for your support i appreciate it make sure you com out to our next show it should be at Kinders on july 14th zao ghost will be recording us so make sure you tear shit up for the cameras thanks

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 07:27:24 GMT

sorry i havent posted in a few days tonight me and mike and chase went and tp'd three houses in my neighborhood and we wrapped cactus' and we threw in trees it was fun... and then since my initials are TP they picked me up and threw me in one of their yards and ran away but they came back laughing ha.. ha.. well im lost in life so if anyone wants to talk about my girl troubles or anything whatever just help haha sorry im just in dire need of assistance in life direction oh ya
MIKE TEDIOUS HAS HIS PERMIT.... HOW FUCKING FRIGHTENING

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 18:43:42 GMT

breadowns are god

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 19:06:53 GMT

none of you really fucking care about me all any of you really care about is how well i play drums or how well i scream or how well i play bass or how well i play guitar, none of you fuckers care about anything other than this i have no real friends i have people who use me even if it has nothing to do with music im still used i dont know why maybe im used just to be hurt ya know all i see is people going out of their way to make me feel like shit i hate all of you why cant u just pay attention to me at all i mean really you could at least pretend to care jesus christ NONE OF YOU would fucking care if i killed my self would you? i mean what if one day u turned on the news and the person says "june 15 a local chandler boy committs suicide by slitting his throat in his shower more news on travis pagel ofter this commercial break" none of you would give a shit you would probably laugh so fucking hard... i mean really if u dont care then stop bothering me if all you want to do is hurt me then get it over with and leave me alone please and if u do care u have a funny fucking way of showing it just leave me alone...

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 05:32:04 GMT

today was somewhat fun i weant to guitar lessons and my teacher taught me a few things and then when i got home i had confidence to try and learn something so i sat down and tabbed out alot of Apex by The Black Dahlia Murder. it was awsome to think i could actually figure stuff out well at least i can figure out music i just wish i could figure out my fucking life should i love and hurt or hurt and love
it just doesnt make any fuckign sense someone help..

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 17:45:23 GMT

well me and erin are no longer gioing out we broke up about a week ago it kind of sucks but life goes on. arizona is way to hot out espicailly when u have to work outside in peoria for 7 hours... over the weekend i was hanging out with my cousin alot hes freaking awsome when he weant to his baseball game i stayed home and hung out with his sister and 2 of her friends. one of her friends played with my hair i liked it haha ya so my band is being recorded by zao ghost on july 14th its gonna be so awsome cause people will be able to see our shit live online this will be fucking awsome i cant wait

~END~

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 22:18:27 GMT

well yesterday i weant to the mall for a like an hour and while i was there i was hanging out with alex, amie, and hannah. they are pretty cool kids i also bought the old Between The Buried And Me cd its SOOOOOO FUCKING GOOD everyone should listen to it, it is so heavy your grandparents would mosh

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 18:36:02 GMT

Enjoy Choking Down The Ashes Of A Purchased Soul, Love Kills... When It Dies...

DAMNIT I WANT TO DANCE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just woke up

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 18:27:38 GMT

its 11 19 andi just woke up i was up untill three or so i guess i just had alot to think about last night and i didnt want to sleep cause i guess i had to much to figure out but i ended up falling asleep anyway and had a dream about this girl who will remain unknown throughout this entire dream she always looked into my eyes and said that she loved me all the time and said that she never wanted to let me go.. well later on in this dream she pulls a knife out of her pocket and whispers softly in my ear, "i'll love you forever" and slowly opens my throat.. the second i died in my dream i woke up and it was 11 00 my dreams are starting to scare the fuck out of me...

Cast From Eden

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 08:03:13 GMT

I know they no longer are a band but did anyone realize how perfect they were, i mean the way they put music together and the way the created guitar riffs and double bass stuff it pissed the hell out of me to know they werent a band anymore i love everything the lyrics were about and how the songs were named after things on a keyboard like alt, escape, control, delete, backspace, and shift and each of them meant something like escape was about drugs and how it got us away but in the end hurt us, and how delete was about suicide and the lyrics to delete make you think about many things like the final point of life and how everything is remembered and how anyone who remembers you dying could be happy or sad, could it have waited another day another time or another place???

parents

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 07:51:52 GMT

Today was the fucking laziest thing ever... i had my bassist stay the night last night and we woke up at like ten and then i sat at the computer for about 5 hours and then my mom got mad and said that i needed to give the computer a rest cause the screen was doing something to my eyes.... haha then i weant to my room and played Resident Evil which made matters so much better and she kept saying that if i keep working with computers all im gonna get is a mush mind haha well see if that works when im making my living off of working with computers and i make 7 times as much as she gets paid HA!

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Wed, 02 Jun 2004 18:29:47 GMT

Well I sat up all night last night playing Resident Evil...that's it.